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I acknowledge our separation, and I am at peace with that. I realize, this drifting apart together from each other, but things must inevitably move on. I cannot provide for you, what you have given to me. Whether it be endless love or devotion, I feel that is difficult for me to reciprocate equally. 

Only in these notes can I confess, withot telling or complaining to F much. 

Perhaps the process is complete, I have been, sort of infused together with the idea of the couple, such that to go back as an individual, I find it hard. I cannot do those squad goals or write beautifully of friendship, spend days together roadtripping or sightseeing and shopping because I have a different idea of it to begin with. 

So, I apologize.