the weekend

it’s nice, to have this break from the people you normally hang out overseas with. disillusionment, if anything. they always go about talking about how great the outside world is, concentrating on dakwahs and theories that are too idealistic in nature but fail to listen/read anything going on in their own country except what’s already on facebook. all slogans but nothing really being discoursed. semangat je lebih tapi infantile in thoughts.

but who am i to judge other people eh? i myself have many other flaws.

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semasa saya tidur di UKM malam sabtu sebelum pergi demo hari tu, ada berbual dengan beberapa orang semasa sedang membuat banner (yang lastnya tak join pun). dengan impeccable disguise saya (kut), saya pergi dengar taklimat budak budak Persatuaan Islam Mahasiswa (?) yang rata ratanya budak budak  fakulti pengajian islam.. later into the night, le friend and i menyimpulkan/mempersoakan bahawa adakah local students more timid in nature? atau adakah maisarah terlalu semangat bercakap selepas minum ipoh white town coffee perisa hazelnut? but mereka belajar benda benda hebat so kagum. “Kajian Tarikat Nashqabandi”, misalnya. I is jealous.

curiously though (kata mereka) mostly they learn from slides and not a critical reading of any text (unless they choose to self-study, that is). so it’s understandable for some people *cough* to steal from libraries and claim to have lost them, because to leave them unread in dusty bookshelves would be a much bigger atrocity. tak gitu?

sometimes i wonder if i’ll be happier studying social sciences/philosophy and that sort of stuff. no doubt i’ll be more in tune with myself. but everything is dandy so far so it’s best to move forward.

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next up the reading list after half-finishing Fear and Trembling, is Plato’s the republic.

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i might just draw up the things i’ll read right now while i’m in Malaysia;

• Paradise Lost, John Milton – this thing has been lying for years now 
• cuba baca semula Mystical Dimensions of Islam, Annemarie Schimmel – as i’ve read parts of Rumi, Attar, and Omar Khayyam. . might be interesting to delve into again and understand better.
• Leviathan, Auster?
• Saramago, whichever book.
• finish Marquez.