two third

“If you find the right person, why waste your time on others?”

surprisingly i don’t write that much about ramadan itself, kan? ok lah, jom, sebelum saya sambung buat karipap untuk jamuan besok.

what a shame.

• so now that i am only 1/2 through the quran. that’s a lot to catch up, reading + translation. dhaif betul maisarah ni. sibuk dengan dunia. haih.
• terawih, probably missed about 4 of them. or five. travelling. sick leaves, so to speak. my body shut down completely last week i can’t even manage myself to get up. 
• i got hit by a car today… okay that sounds totally blown up. i got softly bumped by a car today on my bike and managed to scratch my hands and knees and the only thing i could hear was a big fuck from the driver. nice eh? 
• kaki lebam hidup muram.
• i also haven’t managed to pick up reading, that much. jadi takde maknanya bukak goodreads berkali kali because all my reading material have no plot. who can manage to read a book of poetry in a week? or a twelve years worth of diary in a month? not me. books with narration are much easier to read. and i have deliberately troubled myself reading all this so called stream of consciousness (whatever that is), automatic writing. i have even took the trouble of putting out Celine’s Journey to the End of the Night that i bough last may (2011) on the shelf so i could force (force?) myself to read it. maybe knowing that not many books appeal to you any longer, you start picking only the good ones. tapi you have been a book snob from the beginning, maisarah, bukan?
• too busy, yet i am getting increasingly happily distracted by all this ‘hai mai’ every other day… which is all fine and dandy but egh egh egh egh egh egh egh gedik la woi. kbye. 
• marriage is fine an idea but too hard too heavy a burden (or is it a blessing?), to magnanimous a task. too fearsome. 
• of course, i am not ready, but i am willing to be, ready. 
• tapi takde calon. kut. ahahahahahahahaha.
• imam masjid menangis baca page terakhir al-furqan. sila baca nak tengok sendiri kenapa.
• sometimes that fear of not being true to yourself, or living falsely, is already written in the quran you know? it’s called being a munafiq. a mere pretender.
• abang saya dah balik dari amerika. 🙂