apple eaters

ada orang annoying yang guna account youtube aku untuk tengok benda-benda bosan. trailer movie melayu bangang. sial, aku ada browsing history seh. kalau mahu guna computer aku sila cakap. jangan main sneak sahaja. tapi mungkin adik aku sendiri. tapi aku doubt dia suka bukak things like “Ku tunggu jandamu” trailer. wtf. celaka sungguh. adik aku ada taste juga okeh. se-girly mana pun dia.

bilik harus dikemas. terlalu banyak barang di atas katil. banyak buku-buku yang diambil semula dari rumah untunk dibaca semula. hoenstly, aku tak nampak apa point aku bawak balik semua itu. mungkin mahu beri ilusi kerajinan membaca. oh well, aku sudah tampal april reading list yang jelas kelihatan dekat dinding. hope that helps.

aku mahu menulis, as in, betul-betul menulis. i haven’t written a short story for a long-long time, kali terakhir adalah pada tahun lepas untuk commonwealth competition itu, yang dapat “Commended”. Sigh, whatever happened to publishing. Sila beri sokongan. Dreaming will help. CGJung’s The Red Book which was recently published posthumously was a creation purely from dreams/subconcious. The project shall start… soon I guess. I’ll make a link somewhere nanti. Potsie, mari.

I shall explain this only once. Boredom only occurs when you are around people, constrained in a social situation in which you have no control of. Most people, are of course, aren’t that boring, they just have no such individuality or any specific interests that are immediately recognizable that makes one wants to talk to them. You just don’t have the effing time to get to know people that well. Why bother to “get to know” in the first place. You’re just pissing people off, unless they’re feelers. Goddamn feelers, I hate them.

Assume and make hasty conclusions and retreat retreat unto yourself. When alone, one shall not become bored. One can have freedom of thought, go wherever he wills, whenever he wants, and do whatever he wills. But if uncontrolled, precisely this is when needs a reminder, or better, a guide, a friend, to make him stop. Consult, when necessary. Otherwise, run run run into the wilderness.

sekian, terima kasih. To quote from teddy, “I’ve never seen a bunch of apple eaters”, Apples being logic, and whatever metaphors you see fit for this post. Sila baca Nine Stories.