read, dread, and fret, in red

In spirit of reading Kierkegaard, I would like to quote him. From Fear and Trembling.

“People commonly travel the world over to see rivers and mountains, new stars, garish birds, freak fish, grotesque breeds of human; they fall into an animal stupor that gapes at existence and they think they have seen something.”

Then he continues… “This is not my interest”. Heh.
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Egh, I got bad marks (okay-ish) for Programming. It’s a meh situation. But whatever. I’m done worrying about marks and pointers. Final exam’s in a few weeks but I have done nought, as always, to really, you know, study and all. It’s bad, in a way. I think I’ve been saying this ever since january. It never happened. I rely on first memories too much. Oh well, I’ll manage, somehow. *cues (Get Off Your) High Horse Lady song*

People always lament about how they have freaking tests and exams and assignments and such, while I’m being absolutely non-chalant about these thing. Ignorant, but nonetheless aware of what is being ignored. Aloof, you could say. Until say, two hours before the actual thing. I rely a lot of last minute things. It works. At least I don’t have to waste time to actually study stuff and read till midnight. Exerting too much effort or brainpower is kinda exhausting for me. I get headaches. So I do minimal effort yeah. Sleeping is better. At least you get to dream and stuff. Always sleep with nothing in your mind. It does wonders.

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I found an online video of my dad doing some presentation in Korea. He sounds boring. Scientists are boring. Adults are boring. People in general are boring. I need to grow up. And become boring as well.

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I haven’t received the allowance from MARA yet. Freaking RM2800. I secretly hoped that if I get it early, I’d use it for this week’s PC Fair *kalau ade* to buy some fancy camera. Panasonic Lumix LX-3. Macam. cool. gila.. Siapa sokong aku? Dan tidak, ini bukan DSLR. Aku tak suka berat-berat.

Aku sebenarnya teringin kamera bosan Digital Harinezumi yang jauh lagi murah dan agak queer warna-warnanya. Agak awesome juga. Tapi abaikan. Kualitinya kurang.