time and again

egh, apparently i busted the desktop once again this morning. it’s either the graphic card or the ram’s at fault. but probably this can be solved by disassembling some things and putting it back together, but i don’t wanna take any risks by fiddling around. it usually ends up horribly, as is evident from my history of trying to fix things. tikus membaiki labu. egh. this ultimately means i can’t play games, and watch movies, and uh, change the songs. egh. i suppose that’s supposed to be good, considering i have a few stuff to do, academic-wise. *sigh*

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anyway, there’s this debate thingy at mfi, and we did 3 rounds, and uh, lost once, won twice, but supposedly the loss should be a win for us. it didn’t matter anyway, since what’s important is the feedback. blegh, somehow i realize i’m too…. high-strung. should be more composed, mannered and all that. i suck anyway, but oh well, whatever. will not write more on this, i’m too tired. and by the way, some of you people will happen to uh… be reading on this and uh… be reminded of “confessions of the secret readers” yang tak boleh bla petang tadi. malu seh aku. sneaky bastards.

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i shall start reading kierkegaard. it’s been a while since i’ve read anything too ancient and uh… translated. hopefully that’ll be enough to satisfy my lack of any new subjects to read need. although it does seem contradictory to read about existentialism when you already have al-ghazali.

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blegh. i smell.