vial of denial

rasa kurang enak menjajahi lidah. kau sangka ianya coke. nampak macam. gelas pun yang dapat percuma dekat restoran kuning merah itu. warna hijau. siap ada ais lima empat ketul llagi. tapi sebenarnya itu penipuan semata-mata. teh limau ais. celaka.

dia tahu kau benci teh limau ais. jadi kau tanya, kenapa dia beli.
-sebab sedap.
-buntut kau sedap. itu minuman tambah mual. air manisan celaka.
-apa beza dengan coke. itu celaka juga.
-ada caffeine.
-jadi?
-itu nadi aku.
-itu yang kau fikir.
-apa maksud kau?
-tadepape.
kau juga benci bila soalan dimatikan begitu. satu ultimatum tanpa jawapan. tamat. dia juga tahu kau benci. lagi dia suka. tapi kau, kau tambah benci.
-sialan kau.
kau tinggalkan dia.

infinite and surreal

References to things that symbolizes what seemed an almost idealistic world that was clouded and shrouded, fascinating in all its supposed mysteries because it never occurred that there exists such alternate worlds beyond that crystal snowball you created around yourself.

Through the looking glass, Alice. Through the looking glass.
But never further.
We are ever so elusive and ever so dispelling, once you smash yourself out you would never figure out where and what and why from before it seemed so different and enchanting and shit.
So stay inside. Point us out, if you like, observe us, but never go further.
Unless, you are, the Alice.