another day, another month.
from city to city we fleet from one to another unable to comprehend what is it that we actually want. a new acquaintance, packed and shipped from the land of shah alam, of the theatric kind, who navigates between performance art dan lain-lain sebagai satu bentuk pengajaran di sebuah kedai kopi (yang tutup tengah malam, mind you – sebuah rariti di Jerman).
aku mendengar hal-hal ini, dan hal-hal bli-bli yang sedang sesak membayar sewa dan mencari kerja dan menangis sambil menghirup asap rokok dan menyedut koka kola. i’ve prepared my bed for you guys, katanya. menghias bilik adalah sebuah proses, yang tak akan sudah – setelah langsir dipasang, gambar-gambar dengan kata-kata semi-inspirational (dirangkai bunga-bunga) digantung, karpet h&m dihampar – dirimu sendiri masih belum terisi. bli-bli masih tidak ada sofa, 2 bulan setelah kawan-kawan menghadiahkan sampul berisi wang sempena hari jadinya (p/s: for the couch).
cut to a birthday party over the weekend, in the land of the flatlands. or dinner the night before. twice i hear (as we say our goodbyes), you’re welcome anytime, happy to have you here, followed by you’re part of the family now. this, echoed by the previous weeks and months of relatively the same kind of statements. heavy-handed words, ownership, good/best friend, bonds, what am i to make of these?
oh well, back to my 8-hour journey home.
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