things

  • trim the hair to make it look more presentable to the self. no need. it looks good as it is. 
  • try to ride the bicycle to the beach then up to bellambi? done
  • start dead souls  on the intro
  • make breadstick failed to taste good
  • bake cheesecake later tonight
  • newcastle? no point
  • la kemba?
  • watch at least one abbas k. movie. even though all the characters aren’t that (physically) appealing (but so is life) done with the wind will carry us. thought of it… sublime. iran is beautiful, and if i was (can be) a filmmaker, i’d try to capture long shots/expressions/noise/ambient as much as possible. atmosphere, setting that gives rise to mood and then minimalistic dialogue. it is the visual experience, coupled with the words words that creates moments of nuance. (um, this remains a dream…. soon). make everything orchestral. subtle and minimal
  • laugh at sylvia. kill her off.  slowly
  • study for tests haven’t aced, but alright
  • lab report.  progressing
  • lab questions. start pasting questions so you won’t get lagged behind be the enormity of life.
  • be as passive as possible to the world.
  • frequent the secondhand bookstore to see if they have any murakami in store.  nope
  • try to read another chapter of 1q84 jap lagi
  • try to love life
  • try to love god or be more mindful of him
  • buy cough syrup. 
  • contemplate whether or not to read henri bergson heidegger first. wait for winter
  • start writing resume
  • book tickets to melbourne not going
  • find work or try that paper factory in newtown ask around if there’s anything to help with.
  • find someone to watch stop the virgens with
  • vivid sydney
  • find someone to marry with (haaaaa)  no need. 
  • don’t be depressed
  • call mother
  • puasa
  • khatam quran before start of ramadan (start now)
  • purge music from your ears
  • stop using hot water that much.
  • stop gobbling things into your mouth.
  • stop cursing (even discretely)
  • learn how to iceskate
  • find rollerblades
  • resume learning french
  • german!
  • stop hating people
  • stop writing things like this
  • stop thinking about possibilities that have already passed
  • in other words, stop ruminating
  • simplicity. stop buying things
  • yogurt is king
  • burgers are boring
  • start studying for exams
  • count days till everything is over
  • one thing after another
  • stone and dethroned is the best album from jesus and mary chain and needs to played every evening
  • stop releasing thoughts to people. no one cares more about you than you yourself
  • psychiatry is bullshit. psychology is interesting but only in so far as it relates to other people.
  • it is other people that make any experience interesting. 
  • there is no joy in being alone.
  • read more about towns. and sociology. anthropology.
  • dream about living in copenhagen. 
  • but kuala lumpur eventually is the ideal. 
  • go home. 
  • convince yourself you deserve to be happy.

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